my question

i can really run fast.
no doubt

i was hoping
to be assured
for my presence
on earth.

"when Eddie admitted that some of his life he'd spent hiding from God, and the rest of the time he thought he went unnoticed"
-the five people you meet in heven

that was what i was thinking when i was on my way back from tuition today.

i was thinking.since i've been depending on myself for all this years.
be it sabah, shit and crap. foiled plans and shitted weather.
i depended on myself.

aye miracles work for others.
not for me.
still remember mhj asking me.
have you had any encounters with God?
no.

no.

no.

no.

Qt by the seaside actually brought these questions to my head.
questions. with no answers.
and no.
i don't want advice or help.
i'm afraid it will fall on deaf ears.
i want to do this alone.
let time prove it to me.

running away was a dumb decision nevertheless,
it was a momentary impulse.
but i couldn't stand it anymore
stand what?
i will never tell
what a loser i am.
to throw away what i once had

i'm glad they had fun.
i'm sad that they did not miss me.
what a bastard i am



the bastard's intune song


It's kinda funny how life can change,
Can flip 180 in a matter of days.
Sometimes love works in mysterious ways,
One day you wake up gone without a trace.

I refuse to give up, I refuse to give in,
You're my everything.
I don't wanna give up, I don't wanna give in,
So everybody sing.

One love for the mother's pride,
One love for the times we cried,
One love gotta stay alive, I will survive.
One love for the city streets,
One love for the hip hop beats,
One love, oh I do believe,
One love is all we need.

Late at night out, still wide awake,
Think this is far more than I can take,
I thought my heart could never break,
Now I know that's one big mistake.

I refuse to give up, I refuse to give in,
You're my everything.
I don't wanna give up, I don't wanna give in,
Everybody sing.

One love for the mother's pride,
One love for the times we cried,
One love gotta stay alive, I will survive.
One love for the city streets,
One love for the hip-hop beats,
One love, oh I do believe,
One love is all we need.

Baby just love me, love me, love me,
Baby just hold me, hold me, hold me,
Oh, love me, love me, love me. One love.
Baby just love me, love me, love me,
Baby just hold me, hold me, hold me,
Oh, love me, love me, love me.

One love for the mother's pride,
One love for the times we cried,
One love gotta stay alive, I will survive.
One love for the city streets,
One love for the hip-hop beats,
One love, oh I do believe, One love is all we need.

One love for the mother's pride,
One love for the times we cried,
One love gotta stay alive, I will survive.
One love for the city streets,
One love for the hip-hop beats,
One love, oh I do believe, One love is all we need.

One love for the mother's pride,
One love for the times we cried,
One love gotta stay alive, I will survive.
One love for the city streets,
One love for the hip-hop beats,
One love, oh I do believe,
One love is all we need.